Thursday 16 June 2016

The 'Me' of today.


Photo of me, Khakibum, licking the back pocket flap of a pair of khaki drill shorts, an item of clothing that has played such a huge part in my entire life, with an enigmatic and profound mixture of affection, loathing, embarrassment, phobia, pride and, most importantly of all, a fetish - a situation for which I can largely owe to the Boy Scouts Association, due to the traumatic events which happened on one weekend at Summer camp on the Yorkshire Moors in 1959, and which thereafter transformed and uncontrollably affected me forever, despite my consequentially being expelled from that organisation with a lifetime ban.

The possible very original source of this fetish, pre-dating my brief spell as a boy scout, has been addressed in an October 2013 blog post of mine - "Where did my khaki fetish come from?"


I often wonder if my ongoing desires represent a subconscious, cleansing yearning to return to the state of the innocent lad I was before these scouting events happened and an intense wish that I hadn't come out of that week of Scout Camp soiled and corrupted (in a number of ways) at the hands of a group of more senior scouts who took it on themselves to have humiliating 'fun' with me, coupled with an element of what was seen as their revenge (for something I hadn't even done), resulting in their having pointed me in a certain direction regarding my then imminent adolescent development - and all capped with a vicious and relentless caning on the backside by the scoutmaster-priest, givng me the thrashing not just of my own life, but much more than most boys would ever experience. Those four scouts will never have had the foggiest idea what their actions did to me and my life. If only I could trace them now to tell them, though I can't find them all these years later.

However, because I know that very few, if any, guys share my feelings in this way, I am perfectly able to consign it all to the background, and can assure all my followers that my particular leanings are not essential for importing into all my other varied sexual tastes - though for my own satisfaction, my fetishes may just 'pop up' in an occasional mention. But I'm not going to force the subject onto others for whom my own attractions are minimal or non-existent.
Just thought I ought to make that clear.

18 comments:

  1. awww.... so nice to see you after a long time... :)
    hugs!

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  2. Thanks, Hardcore. Was a bit nervous about showing myself not so much as a 'grandaddy' but as a 'great-grandad'! I reckon that a lot of my followers might think that I'm a lot younger than my true years. Now they know.

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    2. Thanks for your comment, rj27. It was most interesting. I've noted your e-mail address and may come back to you about it, but in the meantime I've deleted your posting in case someone wanted to mis-use your mail id. But I really would be keen to talk to anyone who'll listen to my talk about my khaki fetish which. maybe, you yourself share or, at least, may understand.

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    3. Hi, Rj27 here. I like the way you cared me. How could I share my fetish with you without you sending me e mail? I think I am keen to learn. :)

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    4. Hope you get my e-mail now. K.

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    5. OF course I Got ur mail. RJ

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    6. And I've now got yours in return.

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  3. Hi mr. Khaki

    This is Rob Jon. It seems like u stopped mailing me.. :( I just hope everything is fine btwn us... u t doing fine? Happy Xmas sir.

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    1. A reply is on its way, RJ - with my apologies.

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  4. Where are you. No reply to mails? I've sent you a new e mail, with a wild request! Don't be mad at me, do it only ifd you please. Thnks

    Rob john

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    1. No such e-mail received, RJ - and certainly none with a 'wild request' (you've got me intrigued!). Don't know what could have happened. I've just written you another e-mail on my account which I hope you WILL get.
      And btw: It's a relief to know that you are okay. I was really getting highly concerned.

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    2. OMG! I've sent you two mails last week. may be some technical difficulties, well, I've just sent you a mail.. don't break our conversation, I hope

      RJ

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    3. Still nothing received, RJ. :-(

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  5. Don't know what is happening... Mail says it's been sent, then how on earth it disappeared! :( don't know... This is sad.

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    1. It's very strange, RJ. As far as I can see there's nothing wrong at this end. I've tried sending an e-mail to myself and it works okay. I'll try thinking of other ideas.

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  6. hi there, long time...how have u been? i think of u so much...i look at this pic and it makes me so hot and hard.... wish i could sleep in your arms sweetheart

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  7. Hello there again, HBG. You flatter greatly by saying you think of me. Really? I find that difficult to imagine. But it's very kind of you to enquire. I'm okay, thanks, though increasingly feeling my age, with my best days well behind me now - but haven't quite given up yet. Although I've had my share of excitements when younger I still have regrets about experiences missed which are unlikely to be realised now. Besides my body isn't as active or as supple as it used to be!
    I hope you are well, having fun, and enjoying life with all inhibitions stripped away along with your clothes.
    Thanks so much for the comment. It's made my day!

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